The Apology

After surviving a long, painful day of emotional mayhem (from myself) -- I went in to my little boy's room to tuck them in for the night, While kneeling by Corby's bed I told him I loved him and that I would try to do a better job and that they all deserved more from me.

While I was pouring my heart out to the boy, Dewie walked in, over hearing the last little bit of my lengthy apology regarding my failed day.

She didn't say a word. She hugged me silently and left to get into bed. I kissed my boys and headed over to the girls room. Where I kissed them, told them I loved them and tucked them in for the night. I turned to walk out of the room when Dewie called me back...

"Mom?"
"What."
"Aren't you going to tell us a story?"
"No, no stories tonight."
"But Corby got a story."
"No, Corby didn't get stories."
"Yes he did...the story about how mean you were today. Will you tell that one to us too?"

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YES - They all deserved to hear my apology
YES - I shouldn't have yelled and should have been more patient
YES - They are good kids
YES - They needed to hear it...(how much I loved them)
YES - They will forgive me and love me for who I am
YES - I am human
YES - My personal demons will try to convince me that I failed
YES - there is room for improvement
YES - I'm mad at myself
YES - They need me to be stronger
YES - I'm doing the best I can right now
YES - My Heavenly Father knows that
YES - He has already forgiven me
YES - He is willing to help
YES - He loves me still

 -- You can never out grow it and there is no shame in an apology -- And after you have apologized, don't forget to hug, kiss and tell your kids how much you love and appreciate all they do for you. --